Tag: sleeplessness

One person’s insomnia is another person’s writing time

Or, as in this case, they are both the same person: me. I’m not sure exactly what it is. I think it might be the heat. Could also be the congestion, or the fact that my brain has been churning on this story. I managed to get some sleep between 11pm and 1am, but haven’t slept since. I came down stairs around 2am, turning up the air conditioning and tried to drift off on the couch where it was a little cooler, but that didn’t work either. Went back upstairs, tossed and turned for another 45 minutes and gave up. My alarm was set for 5am which is less than two hours away, so what’s the point, really?

So rather than waste time tossing and turning, I’m going to spend the bulk of the next few hours writing. Looks like there are a few other writer-people online to keep me company. 🙂

What a pain in the shoulder!

I had trouble falling asleep last night but at least I know why. First, I had random echoes of what I was reading running through my head. This happens to me from time to time when I read a lot on a particular day. It doesn’t happen often but I am resigned to it when it does. Second, my mind was busy working on ideas that will allow me to expand “Graveyard Shift”. It was close to midnight when I finally got to sleep.

At some point in the night, I slept must have slept on my left arm wrong–very wrong for when I awoke this morning, my left shoulder was excruciatingly sore. I have a high tolerance for pain, but this is ridiculous. The pain seems centered on the left end of my collar bone, but it is affecting my entire shoulder. In fact, I grimace just to lift my arm. I had difficulty holding my book on the train with my left hand (admittedly, it is a heavy book). I don’t know what I could have done to it that made it hurt so much.

Incidentally, I finished In Memory Yet Green last night and started in on In Joy Still Felt first thing this morning (that was the heavy book that I had difficulty lifting). It’s a good thing I’ve given myself this week off from the gym. I fear it would have been impossible for me to do anything with my shoulder in this condition.

Sleep at last

I did get sleep last night. I was in bed at 8 PM, when it was still light out. I turned out the light at 8:20 and I was out. I woke up bleary-eyed to my alarm at 4:20 AM. I was still groggy enough when I got into the office at 5:40 than I didn’t go to the gym. I got an extra hours worth of sleep instead.

While I did get sleep last night, it was, at least in part, pharmaceutically-induced. The real challenge will be tonight. Will I be able to get to sleep without any sleep-aid medication?

And so I’m starting to finally feel sleepy…

Yes, at 7:15 PM, I’m finally starting to feel sleepy. But I’m not taking any chances tonight. I’m going to sleep and I’ve helped myself in that direction by taking some NyQuil now so that by the time I head off to bed (not very long from now), I’ll be ready to collapse. My guess is that I won’t last much longer and I’ll be in bed around 8 PM. That’s fine by me, even though it’s still light out. This insomnia thing is no picnic, I can assure you.

No sleep

I read for about an hour and began to feel sleepy. So I turned out the light and proceeded to toss and turn. And toss and turn. And toss and turn. About 20 minutes ago I gave up (not without some frustration). I’m dressed (for the gym), going to have some breakfast, and then heading into work on the first train.

Maybe I’ll sleep better tonight.

Insomnia, night #2

Yes, it’s 2:26 AM . I managed to sleep from about 9:30 until midnight, and I have been up ever since, tossing and turning and unable to sleep. I decided that I would get up and read for a while (and have a glass of chocolate milk) to see if either act as a soporific. My instinct is to say, $%*!#$ it! and just get dressed, but I’m certain if I did that I’d become tired within an hour or two. If I can read for a little while and grow sleepy within the hour, I can still get a couple of hours of sleep before I have to get up.

Otherwise, I suppose I’ll just read until 4:20, have breakfast and head off to the gym.

(The frustrating thing is that for months I was sleeping so well. I was falling asleep virtually the second my head hit the pillow, and sleeping rather soundly until it was time to get up. Now I’ve entered a phase and I can only wonder how long it will last.)


Granted, I stayed up late to watch the premier of The Sopranos and Entourage, even though I had to be up at 4:20 AM and even though I was TiVoing the shows. I am a supplicant to instant gratification, what can I say. But something went terribly wrong in my efforts to actually fall asleep last night. The fact is, I didn’t sleep last night. At 3:30 AM, with less than an hour to go before my alarm went off, I got up in frustration, took a Tylenol PM, and then sent an email message to work indicating that I’d be staying home today in order to catch up on sleep.

Even the Tylenol PM didn’t work right away, and it was sometime after 5 AM that I finally got to sleep. I was up at about 10 AM and, while I feel a bit groggy, at least I managed to get a few hours of sleep.

Late night

I had a rare late night for a “school” night last night. (I still think of Monday nights as school nights even though I’ve been out of school for nearly 13 years now.) When I got home, I watched Battlestar Galactica and then I watched The Road To Bali. While doing that, I was chatting via IM with kruppenheimer for a while, keeping her from doing her work.

Then I was on the phone with Andy for a while. Then a short video chat with rubysnina. Then I had to pack my lunch. By the time I was finished with everything, it was 9:30, an hour later than I normally get to bed. But I wasn’t ready to go to sleep. I put on some music and played Solitaire for a while and before I knew it, it was 10:30. I tried sleeping at that point, but just tossed and turned until sometime after 11.

Nights like that are annoying because the later it gets, the more I think to myself, okay, less than five hours of sleep, and now less than four hours of sleep. I toss and turn.

I woke up at 4:24 this morning, less than a minute before my alarm goes off and I hate that. (Usually I wake up about 5 minutes before my alarm goes off.) I hate hearing the sound of my alarm and I had to rush to shut it off before it went off. I pulled myself out of bed wishing it was already Wednesday.

Long night, little sleep

For some reason, I had trouble sleeping last night. A lot of trouble. I went to bed around 9:30 (because I could sleep in until 5:30 this morning since I’m working out this afternoon instead of this morning). I was pretty tired when I turned out the light but I couldn’t fall asleep. At first, it was “information overload” that was keeping me awake. This happens to me sometimes, when I’ve been reading a lot, snippets of that reading will go through my head when I try to sleep, and it’s like listening to the words repeated through the static of an old radio. You really can’t make them out, but there’s enough there to keep you awake. I would doze off, but wake up so frequently that by the time 5:20 rolled around, I felt like I hadn’t gotten much sleep. I decided to sleep in until around 9 AM and head into work late. I got up to send email to my team letting them know I’d be in later this morning.

Three things prevented me from doing this.

1. I had an email message from my boss, which called me out for not taking something seriously that I should have taken seriously. It had to do with our corporate “Institutional Principles” policy and the fact that we all had to watch a short on-line video about those principles. I happen to have the principles memorized and I even wrote a white paper on them for how to better execute those principles within our department several years back. So I never watched the video. But as my boss correctly pointed out, this was a poor excuse and in fact, it showed (for me) an uncharacteristic digression from these principles. He was right and I was wrong. I let the world know it when I am right, but I also try to do the same thing when I am wrong, so I sent off an apology. Naturally, however, that email helped to wake me up.

2. The project manager for one of the projects I am working on had sent an email to the team reminding them that the system we are developing would not be available between 7 AM and 11 AM this morning because I would be working on it. If I came in late, that window would shrink, so I figured I needed to go into work right away, rather than try and get a few more hours sleep.

3. On the positive side, I saw mabfan‘s post on the Age of Science Fiction Age, in which he refers people to my comments on the magazine. This was the final straw. I was already up, I had reasons to go straight into work, and after reading Michael’s post, I was motivated to go into work because I knew I’d have 35 minutes on the train to get through at least one more story in SF AGE.

And so, here I am. While I could have used a few more hours of sleep, I’m in the office and ready to get started. Thank you, Tom, for pointing out a mistake I made, and allowing me to correct it. Thank you Donny, for reminding me of a commitment that I made, and allowing me to keep it. And thank you Michael, for giving me some encouragement after an otherwise rough night and early morning.

Trouble sleeping

It’s 4:48 AM and I’m having some trouble sleeping. I woke up about half an hour ago and haven’t been able to get back to sleep since then. Partially, it may be because it’s a little too hot in here (the central air is on, but it’s still kind of hot in my room and I turned the window unit A/C off before I feel asleep. In part, it’s due to this lingering cough, and general itchiness.

It’s a good thing it’s Saturday night/Sunday morning and I don’t have to get up for work tomorrow.

I might try to read for a little while to see if that helps.


For the first time in a really long time, I can’t sleep. I don’t feel tired. My mind is more active than usual. Plus, I napped during the day yesterday and today, which can’t have helped the situation. It’s been so long since this has happened that I really don’t know what to do. I can’t stand just laying in bed while nothing happens. On the otherhand, I need to be up in 5-1/2 hours. So: do I try and pull an all-nighter? Or do I keep myself occupied reading or watching TV or something until I do fall asleep?

I think I’m going to try the latter for now.