Category: writing

Admitting defeat

Sometime around 10:45 last night, the NaNoWriMo novel died after a relapse of plot problems and increasing indifference.  The relapse began on Wednesday when I realized that, despite finishing Part 2, it was more or less unusable.  It wasn’t the direction I wanted to take things. At the time, I didn’t see this as critical. I was eager to write Part 3, but as I started down that direction, I realized that a rewrite of Part 2 would require some minor changes in Part 1 and who knows how it would impact Part 3. I found myself stalled, unable to move forward, and I eventually realized that this was a graveyard spiral from which there would be no recovery.

The novel died quietly in the night.

I don’t see this as a complete failure for several reasons:

  • Part 1 is really outstanding and I plan to cannibalize it and make it into a long novelette or short novella.
  • I learned more about the novel-writing process than ever before
  • I wrote a lot, and for me, any writing is good practice
  • Most importantly, it taught me that I am not yet ready to write novels and that I should focus on what I am getting better and better at, which is writing short stories.

This last point is the most significant thing to come out of any of the NaNoWriMo’s that I have so far attempted. Last night I realized that I should be focusing on my short fiction. I am not trying to be a full-time writer so there is no need for me to be writing novels. I don’t think I have reached the maturity or level of experience to write a novel successfully.  I think this might come with time, but that I shouldn’t force it. I should stick with short fiction and focusing on writing more of that, and moreover, selling more of that. I love short fiction, and I am getting better at it and I should be taking advantage of my recent successes to write even more of it.

This is what I will be doing, therefore. My goals for 2011 will reflect this, and I will discuss that in more detail when I post those goals closer to the end of the year.

I am partially done with Story #8. I also have a small amount of Story #9.  Story #10 will be the cannibalized version of Part 1 of the novel. I might not finish these three stories before the end of the year, but whatever I don’t finish will carry over to next year. Next year my focus will be entirely on short fiction. I may even skip NaNoWriMo next year to maintain that focus. I want to get as good as I can get at the art before I move on to something else. Maybe I’ll try novels again a few years down the road, but for now, it’s short fiction.

This is an invaluable lesson. You can’t be everything. I have friends and colleagues who are outstanding novel writers. I am not. But I’m getting to be a half-way decent short story writer and with more practice, maybe I’ll even be pretty good at it one day.

I’ll tell you this, though: when the novel passed last night, it came as an enormous relief. Admitting defeat was, in a way, cathartic.  I am looking forward to getting back to short fiction.

NaNoWriMo Day 31 – Struggle for Survival

I didn’t do any writing on the novel yesterday. I worked on the outline some, fleshing out the details of Part 3, but no writing. In part this was because I was busy with too many other things. But that is just an excuse. The truth is that I am pretty unhappy with Part 3 and because of that, even Part 3 has lost some of its luster. I feel like I am in a sudden struggle for survival in my attempt to finish the novel at all, let alone by December 15.

I decided yesterday that in the second draft, I am cutting Part 2 entirely. The plot just isn’t interesting enough in that part of the novel. I still think I have a pretty good Part 3 outline, but some of the motivation for the actions that occur are less clear without knowing what will happen in the new Part 2. I almost feel like I need to rewrite the outline for Part 2 before I can continue with Part 3 in any meaningful way. Of course, this will mean some minor changes in Part 1 as well, but I still think Part 1 is the strongest and I don’t think too much will change there.  Truthfully, I feel like I could use some time away from the story. I’m tempted to set it aside and finish up another short piece I’ve been working on just to get my mind off of it for a little while. But that doesn’t get the novel written. I know that I need to stick with it. I can push through by brute force, like I always do, and clean things up in the second draft, even if that means some wholesale rewrite.

I may use the short story as a carrot.  If I can get my 2,000 words on the novel done each day, then I’ll permit myself to work on the short story in the evenings–but only if I get the novel writing done first.

Anyway, since I’ve spoken about my daily successes, I felt a post was in order describing some of my failures.  Part 2 is a definite failure and it is impacting my will to press forward.  But press forward I will try. December 15 is looming ever closer and I’ve still got about 28,900 words to go.

NaNoWriMo by the Numbers

Now that I have completed the 30-day NaNoWriMo challenge, here is a look at what I did “by the numbers”.  If you ask me, it’s pretty impressive:

  • 61,131 words in 30 days. That’s an average of 2,037 words/day
  • Wrote on 25 out of 30 days.  If you count just those 25 days, I wrote an average of 2,445 words/day
  • Wrote every one of the first 21 days without a break
  • My single best day: Friday, November 12 with 3,862 words
  • My single worst day: Sunday, November 21 with 1,875 words
  • I finished the month 11,121 words ahead of NaNoWriMo pace
  • At my high point on November 21, I was 17,027 words ahead of NaNoWriMo pace
  • I spent a total of 46 hours at the keyboard doing actual novel writing
  • That’s an average of 1,327 words/hour, or about 5 manuscript pages

Now consider that in addition to this, I also:

  • Wrote 6,621 words of short fiction during this time

That brings my total fiction for the month of November to 67,652 words.  That is utterly mind-boggling to me and it tells me that if I put my mind to it, I can write every single day

NaNoWriMo 2010 Day 30 — The End of Part 2

Once again, I didn’t get up early to write this morning and wrote at lunch instead.  It is a frighteningly interesting phenomenon where I can be under an arbitrary deadline like NaNoWriMo and get up early every day and write 2,000 words, but when I am on my own arbitrary deadline, it doesn’t seem to hold much weight. I think this is the discipline that full-time writers talk about when they say that it is difficult to write everyday when you don’t real deadlines hanging over your head.

But write at lunch I did.  I worked on Chapter 30 which is the final chapter of Part 2.  The chapter contains 3 scenes and I wrote all of the first two and the beginning of the last before having to bring myself to a stop and get back to work.  It totaled 2,043 words and brings me to a 30-day total of 61,131 words for NaNoWriMo.

I’ll have more to say on my stats for this month in the next post.

What I want to say here is that Part 2 of my novel, while virtually finished, is going to be completely rewritten in the second draft.  I don’t like the direction it has taken, and while there are interesting aspects to some of it, I don’t think it makes for a very exciting part of the story.  I kind of saw this coming when I got bogged down in the infamous middle-muddle, but I ignored it and pressed on in order to get the writing done.  What I see now are several plot problems that aren’t easily resolvable, to say nothing of trying to cram too much in without being able to focus on any of the more interest aspects of what I was trying to do.  I’m not sure what direction it will take in the second draft but I expect it to be a complete rewrite, and I imagine that of the 30,000 words or so that currently make up Part 2, I’ll retain only a fraction of that.  What that leaves me with is what I think of as a very good Part 1 and what I think will be a very good Part 3 and I’ll need something interesting to bridge the two parts.

That said, I think it was a good experience just forcing myself to write because it helped me to identify the problems and start to work on ways that I could attempt to fix them.  And when those fixes looked like they wouldn’t hold, it helped me realize when and what will have to go in order to make this the best possible story it can be, and for me that is crucial.

A word about the next 15 days or so:

NaNoWriMo officially ends today at midnight.  But for me, the process of writing my first novel continues and for the sake of consistency, I will continue my daily progress posts under the post titles of NaNoWriMo 2010 Day x.  The charts that I include at the end of each post will change slightly since I can no longer make use of the NaNo website’s automatically generated charts, but the principle will be the same and those following along can continue to follow my progress through this novel as I begin on Part 3.  I still have some work on the Part 3 outline and I hope to get some of that done tonight.  My personal deadline is to finish up the novel by December 15–two weeks from tomorrow, but my hard deadline is actually December 20, the day before I go on vacation.  I do not want the novel hanging over my head when I am trying to relax.

Be sure to check out the post that follows this one if you are interested in some of my stats for the month of November.

And as always, here are today’s numbers:

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Scrivener 2.0: My month-long test drive

Scrivener 2.0

A preview of Scrivener 2.0 was released just in time for writers to test it as part of NaNoWriMo and I decided to take advantage of that to work on my novel this month. I’ve been a Scrivener user for many years and have already written about my great experiences with Scrivener 1.0.  What follows are my thoughts on test-driving Scrivener 2.0 for the last 30 days.

Although I am a science fiction writer by night (or early morning), I am a software developer by day and I’ve worked on software in which customer feedback has played a large role.  This is very clear in the first glance of Scrivener 2.0: it is a piece of software developed with the customers in mind–namely, writers–and 2.0 had introduced many features which make a writer’s life (well, mine anyway), substantially easier.

Writing a novel–as I am discovering–is a complicated process.  For me, it works best with a detailed outline where I can weave together the various subplots into a set of chapters and scenes that I can portion out for each day’s work.  Scrivener makes this easy.  I used the tool to write a detailed outline, very rough at first, which I then broke into chapters and scenes.  Eventually, I took that text from a single Scrivener file and split it into multiple files so that I had some 45 chapters outlined.  They show up in Scrivener 2.0 as index cards and the newly added feature that lets you include custom meta-data makes it even easier to organize those cards the way you want to.  It comes with some good defaults (by character, for instance), but I wanted to add meta-data for levels of tension and for certain subplots and it was easy to do this so that I could get a good visual representation of the story.  Furthermore, you can now place index cards freeform on the board if you choose, which allows you to graphically illustrate your story arc–something I think is very useful.

I had a lot of characters and a couple of other proper nouns frequently used in the novel and I added those to Scrivener’s auto-complete function so that when I started typing them, the Scrivener would suggest the autocomplete and I didn’t have to type the entire word.  This sped things up enormously and made sure that certain character names (e.g. “Derterous”) were always spelled consistently.

Scrivener 2.0 also allows you to capture information about characters and places in special templates.  This has proven very useful in my work on the novel because the cast of characters is large and it is sometime hard to keep them all straight.  The character template even allows you to include a picture of the character, which helps me enormously in visualizing what I think they look like and adding appropriate descriptions.  It is also a place to keep notes about the state of the character through the course of the writing so that you can easily reference key events or traits as the story progresses.

One thing that helped enormously during NaNoWriMo was the “Daily Target” template, which is nothing more than a normal Scrivener text file with a “goal” set for 1,667 words.  When you set a goal on a text file, there is a progress bar at the bottom of the file window that crawls forward the more words you write.  It turns from red to yellow to green and you can even have the system alert you through Growl when you’ve reached your goal.  Since my personal daily goal was 2,000 words, I modified the template slightly and it worked like a charm for me.  I usually exceeded my goal and Scrivener made it easy to tell how I was doing–I could glance at the progress bar–without pulling me out of my writing.

Scrivener 2.0 made excellent enhancements to its “scrivenings” functionality.  You can easily select multiple documents and have them appear as one continuous document in the editor.  This proved very handy in chapters which contained multiple scenes.  I was targeting my chapters for roughly 2,000 words, but when a chapter had 3 scenes, I’d set the goals on each scene differently, say, 800 words, 1000 words, and 200 words.  When I pulled these together into a single Scrivening, the application was smart enough to display a progress bar that was the total of all the selected goals so I was still looking at my overall target.

Scrivener 2.0 comes with a “name generator” feature that will generate character names for you.  It has a bunch of nifty little options (male, female, alliterative, double-barreled, etc.).  At first, this seemed unnecessary but it proved invaluable during NaNoWriMo to keep me writing and not getting bogged down in coming up with a name.  For most of my main viewpoint characters, I’d already chosen names.  But when I came to a scene into which  new character was introduced and for whom I did not yet have a name, I’d use the name generated and within seconds, I’d have 50 names to chose from.  The value here was that I had to pause for just a few seconds to get a name as opposed to stopping my progress completely, debating, searching websites, and finally choosing something.  It kept me focused on writing, which is key in the November contest.

There are many, many other features which I am not even covering at this point (but which I may get to eventually).  Snapshots in Scrivener 2.0 now highlight the actual differences between file version, for instance.  And there was even an option to compile the NaNoWriMo novel in “obsfucated” form–scrambled–so that you could submit it for verification to the website without fear of it being copied or stolen.

All told, I spent an estimated 56 hours using Scrivener 2.0 in the month of November, writing more than 65,000 words, and in all of that time, I did not run into a single bug or glitch.  Scrivener 2.0 works the way I like to work, it repsonds to my inputs in predictable ways in which I would expect and it doesn’t try to do things that it is not designed to do.  It is by far the best writing program I have ever used and despite the fact that Scrivener 1.x was already a good application, the development team still managed to listen carefully to customer feedback and make Scrivener 2.0 even better.

I “won” NaNoWriMo this year, my second win in 2 years.  In both years, Scrivener played a big role.  Winning the contest means that I am eligible for a 50% discount on Scrivener 2.0, but I would have paid full price ($45) even if I didn’t win.  It is some of the best money you could invest in yourself as a writer, like picking out a fine, well fashioned typewriter.

Since I have been using Scrivener, I have written stories that I have sold to Analog Science Fiction, Orson Scott Card’s InterGalactic Medicine Show, and Apex Magazine.  Scrivener has proven an invaluable tool in those successes, helping me better organize my thoughts, and then getting out of the way so that I can focus on the writing.

If there are writers out there thinking of using Scrivener, give it a test drive, you won’t regret it.  It is among the finest pieces of software I’ve ever come across and I highly recommend it.

NaNoWriMo 2010 Day 29 – Pushing Forward

I finally got around to posting my novel progress for the day.  I ended taking the weekend off because we had friends in town and between hanging out with them and dealing with 3 little kids, I was pretty much worn out for most of the weekend.  But I was back at it today, working through a rather longish Chapter 26.  The chapter was made up of 3 scenes each of which I’d estimated at close to 1000 words.  It results in a 2,755 words for me today, bringing my 29-day total to 59,088 words.  I was happy with all but the last scene.  That one will clearly require some work.

But it looks like I’m about 4 chapters away from wrapping up Part 2 of the novel and that means that on Friday or Saturday, I’ll start into Part 3 which I’m really looking forward to writing.  I’m still pushing to finish by about December 15, and certainly not later than December 20 since I don’t plan on taking the novel on vacation and I’d like to head out of town without the novel hanging over my head.

Tomorrow is the last official day of NaNoWriMo and after tomorrow, I’ll be writing a post on my experience with Scrivener 2.0 through this process, so stay tuned for that in addition to the usual stuff.  I’ll also be posting about how much time I spent writing in the month of November which was a record-setting month for me.

Here are the stats for today:

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NaNoWriMo 2010 Day 26 – A 2-session day

I was up at 7am this morning and did the first of 2 writing sessions today.  There were two scenes in Chapter 25 and I felt like between scenes was a good break point, especially since I had other chores to do this morning before our weekend guests arrived.  Actually, there were not originally 2 scenes in Chapter 25 but the way I ended the first scene made the subsequent scene a natural fit to ratchet up the tension, and overall, I think it worked pretty well.

I wrote 2,153 words today for a 26-day total of 56,333 words.  Despite my win on the 21st and missing 3 full days of writing, I am still more than 13,000 words ahead of pace, which is somehow pleasing to me.  Glancing at my outline for Chapter 26, tomorrow should be a pretty fun day as well.

Part 2 has a taken a turn from what I originally expected, and I imagine that this part will change the most in the second draft.  But at least the changes have helped me push past the middle muddle and get back to my 2,000 words a day without much struggle.

Here are the stats for today:

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NaNoWriMo 2010 Day 25 – Past the middle muddle

After a few days off, I was back to work early this afternoon.  I’ve been struggling lately with the “middle muddle” and felt stuck in the mud in the midst of Part 2 of the novel, but thanks to some reworking of my outline, and some quality thinking time cleaning 4 bathrooms and vacuuming all three levels of the house, I managed to push through it today and I feel good about it.  I managed 2,146 words for a 25-day total of 54,180 words.

I had intended to treat the holiday today as a “weekend” day and get up at 7am and do my writing, but I slept in.  I plan on being back to my normal routine tomorrow.

In the meantime, I was pleased with what I wrote today.  It was a brute-force push through the middle-muddle, but it introduced two significant subplots which will carry me through the remainder of Part 2 (roughly 6 more chapters) with what I think is a set of interesting and exciting story lines.  This is around where I died last year after winning NaNoWriMo.  For some reason, the pressure is off when you win, and that is a bad thing for me because I work so well under that competitive pressure.  Without that pressure, I have to work even harder just to get going.  But I think that today’s writing was a turning point.  I’m already looking forward to Chapter 25 tomorrow.

Here are the stats for today:

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NaNoWriMo 2010 Winner!

You can verify your win today on the NaNoWriMo website.  I just ran my verification and was validated as a winner for 2010:

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Now that I’ve verified my win, I’m about to tackle my 2,000 words for today.  Remember: I’m aiming for 90,000 words by December 15 so I still have quite a way to go.  Happy Thanksgiving!  And happy writing.

NaNoWriMo 2010 Days 22-23 (Win+3)

I didn’t manage to do any writing on Monday or Tuesday because I was in New York attending various writer events. That is really just an excuse, of course. In reality it was a combination of the fact that I “won” the competition which takes off some of the pressure (I wish it didn’t), laziness (being on the road is a good excuse not to write), and exhaustion.  As things stand, I have just over 52,000 words and while I didn’t get up to write this morning, I do expect to get some writing in today, and I plan on being back to my normal schedule tomorrow, now that I am caught up on sleep.

Part 2 still needs work and I think the fact that my outline did not start out nearly as complete as Part 1 is a big reason why I am having so much difficulty with it now.  I plan on getting the rest of the kinks worked out today, and I also plan on being certain that I have Part 2 fully-fleshed out, as I should be ready to start on that in about a week.

I believe the NaNoWriMo site opens for official “win” recording tomorrow, so I should have my “certificate” tomorrow, which is nice.

NaNoWriMo 2010 Day 21 (Win+1)

This morning was the first morning that I did not make my personal quota of 2,000 words, and it is probably no coincidence that it happened the day after I “won” the event.  Some of the pressure is off.  I finished up the morning with 1,875 words, still well above the NaNoWriMo pace, for a 21-day total of 52,034 words. I could make excuses for why I couldn’t squeeze out another 125 words, but I won’t.  I’m just happy I was able to get up at 5am on a Sunday and get 2 hours of writing in, despite having won the competition yesterday.  I hope it demonstrates my dedication to finishing up the first draft of the novel before December 15.

I wrote the first scene of Chapter 23 this morning and it wasn’t a great scene, but it added some background information to the main antagonist which I felt I needed to make her into a more fully rounded character, and give her the motivation for why she is opposing the heroes of the novel.  In that sense, it was a good morning.

We’re heading up to New York today.  Tomorrow, I have my Big Writers Day.  Hopefully I can continue my early morning writing unabated while I’m there.

Here are the stats for today:

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