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Two-Time Nebula Award-Winner Jamie Todd Rubin?

When I was twelve years old, I remember wanting a computer so badly, I sometimes dreamed that I got one. It was one of those rare, completely realistic, and completely delightful dreams. It was frustrating, too, because while I got a computer in my dream, there was always something that prevented me from using it, always some task I had to take care of first, so that I could never really use it in my dream. What I remember most, however, was waking up and feeling for a few fleeting seconds, that I had actually gotten the computer. That was followed by the sudden disappointment at the realization that I had been dreaming. I’d have to wait a little longer before I got my computer. (Eventually, I did get one.)

I haven’t had a dream like that in years. Indeed, for the last several months, it seems that my dreams are a jumble of exhausting images that mostly make no sense and even when I sleep well, cause me to wake feeling exhausted. I have grown desperate enough to begin reading about the science of dreaming and sleeping to see if there is anything I can to so lower the volume of my dreams–or mute them completely for a while.

Well, last night, seeing that they were being threatened, my dreams fought back. It was a bad night in terms of sleep. I went to bed at ten thirty and didn’t actually fall asleep until sometime after 3 am. I know slept between 3 am and 4 am because that is when this dream took place. In the dream, I was at a science fiction convention. I was at a table surrounded by people I knew, but no one I could identify. Everyone was laughing and cheering. I had just learned that I had won not one, but two Nebula awards: one for best short story, and the other for best novelette.

I have no idea what the stories were for which I won these awards. What I remember most was the I couldn’t believe that I had won them. Me, just the kid who liked reading science fiction when he was growing up and wanted to try his hand writing it, the kid who tried for 14 years to sell a story before making his first sale, and who went on to sell about a dozen stories to many of the major s.f. magazines before running dry. I had won two Nebula awards in the same night. How was that even possible? I was elated. I remember tears welling in my eyes each time I thought about it, or each time someone at the table congratulated me. From here on forward, I could always think of myself as two-time Nebula award winner Jamie Todd Rubin.

Sometime around 4 am I woke up and it took a little while for me to realize that it had been a dream, that I had not, in fact, won two Nebula awards. And I have to admit, I felt the same sense of disappointment I felt when I awoke from that dream about getting a Commodore Vic-20 when I was twelve. I wished it were true, but knew that it wasn’t.

As I said, I eventually got my Vic-20, but I suspect a Nebula award (or two) is not in the cards for me. Even when I was selling stories to the magazines, I was never an awards candidate, and I knew it. Indeed, I’ve won very few awards in my life. I do good, consistent work, but I’m not sure anything I do is award-worthy. This is not self-deprecation, or false modesty, but what I think is a fair assessment of my abilities. I’m a hard worker, and do my work–whatever it is–well. That is enough for me.

Still, it felt so good in my dream to think, at least for a little while, that I had won those Nebulas.

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Nebula Weekend 2011, Day 1, Part 2

I had so much fun at the first day of the Nebula Weekend. Let’s see, where did I leave off yesterday…?

Around 3pm I went to one of the hotel bars where people were hanging out. A short time later, I saw Stan Schmidt, editor of Analog walking by and he eventually joined me. We drank beer and talked science fiction. I told him how excited I was to see my story appear in Analog and he told me he’d heard good things about it. He then proceded to ask if I was sending him something soon. So I summoned enough nerve to do what my friend Michael Burstein suggested, which was to pitch an idea to Stan. I won’t tell you the idea, but I will tell you that Stan liked it, said it was good, and agreed that it sounded like a series of stories, not just one. He urged me to write it and send it to him right away. “You have some time,” he joked, “because I won’t be back in the office until Tuesday.” That was all I needed to hear. I am once again jazzed about writing and am going to do my best to make this a fantastic story.

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My 2010 Hugo and Nebula nominations

I’ve done my nominations for the Hugo and Nebula awards for 2010. There were several good novels and one superbly outstanding one. I didn’t read a whole lot of short fiction from 2010 so some of those categories are blank.  Nominations within each grouping are listed alphabetically by author.

Nebula Nominations

Best Novel

Best Short Story

Hugo Nominations

Best Novel

  • Echo by Jack McDevitt
  • WWW:Watch by Robert J. Sawyer
  • Blackout/All Clear by Connie Willis

Best Short Story

  • “Hope” by Michael A. Burstein (Destination:Future)
  • “What Will Come After” by Scott Edelman (What Will Come After)
  • “I’m Alive, I Love You, I’ll See You In Reno” by Vylar Kaftan (Lightspeed, June 2010)

Best Related Work


Best Editor, Short Form

  • John Joseph Adams (Lightspeed)
  • Neil Clarke (Clarkesworld)
  • Stanley Schmidt (Analog)
  • Edmund Schubert (Orson Scott Card’s InterGalactic Medicine Show)
  • Sheila Williams (Asimov’s)

Best Dramatic Short Form

  • “Course Correction” (Episode 19 of ABC’s Flashforward) by Robert J. Sawyer

Best Semiprozine

Best Fanzine

John W. Campbell Award for Best New Writer

A quick comment on Connie Willis’ Blackout/All Clear. This is a single book that was split into two books by the publisher. This is not a series. There is no synopsis at the beginning of All Clear. All Clear starts exactly where Blackout left off and it is impossible to read that book and make any sense of it without having reading Blackout. I have therefore nominated the entire book, as written, for the Hugo and Nebula. I don’t know if this is allowed. I inquired on this but I haven’t yet gotten a response. It would seem remarkably silly to me to have to treat these books individually, but we’ll see how things turn out.

ETA: I have since learned that Blackout/All Clear is, in fact, being treated as one book.

Nebula Award nominee “I Remember the Future” by Michael A. Burstein

The Nebula Awards nominees were announced today and my friend, Michael A. Burstein’s wonderful story, “I Remember the Future” made the ballot in the category of short story. Nebula Awards are voted on by active members of the Science Fiction and Fantasy Writers of America and the awards will be given out in May. Whether you are an active SFWA member, a fan of science fiction, or someone curious as to what this is all about, you could do no better than starting with Michael’s stories, and in particular, “I Remember the Future”. The story appears in his collection of the same name, I Remember the Future: The Award Nominated Stories of Michael A. Burstein. The collection is well worth the price of admission and I’d urge you to find a copy and take a look at the title story. It is no surprise it received the nomination.


I was up around 8:30 AM yesterday morning. I walked into the office to check email and news, and saw, sitting on my bookshelf, where it has been sitting for months and months, Arthur C. Clarke’s Imperial Earth. For some reason, I was unable to resist it, so I took it with me to IHOP and started reading it while there.

After breakfast, I headed over to Greenbelt and Buddy Attick lake. I sat down by the lakeside and read for close to an hour. It was actually very peaceful. There were not large crowds of people around, the sounds of birds and insects filled the air. Every few pages I would take a break and watch the birds swoop down in the lake to make their graceful landings.

I headed back home after an hour or so and decided to read some more, but I quickly became tired so I got into bed and napped until almost 12:45 PM. I read for another hour thereafter and then headed over to Silver Spring to take in the 2:45 PM showing of Spiderman 3, which wasn’t as good as I’d hope, but wasn’t too bad either. After the movie, I treated myself to an early dinner at the Austin Grill before heading home for the evening.

I kept checking online throughout the evening to see if the Nebula Award winners had been announced. Finally, shortly before going to bed, the winners were posted. I was sorry to see that neither mabfan nor shunn won in the novella category. The one story in that category that I didn’t read, “Burn”, by James Patrick Kelly won.

But at least the Yankees beat Seattle so there was some good news at the end of the day.